Listening to mayday super man now. Sad song. The lyrics really touch me. Got scolded by my dad n mum for coming home late. I know i am wrong to come home so late but all i want is to spent more time with my friends. Among our gang, i am the only one who is studying in sp. Kind of lonely. No one will lend his or her ear to me at home. Mum and dad, i know you will never got to see this, but do you know y i always go out and never stay at home? I am scared. I am afraid of doing somethings wrong then you two will scold me. Or curse me? I am lonely at home. What is the use of staying at home when no one really care abt you. Mum, u had given all ur love and care to brother and sister. Perhaps you tink i am old enough but what abt i am young? I don blame you. You all are my parents. But all i wanna is juz to care abt mi more.Is that really difficult? I am afraid when you scold mi or even sometimes curse mi. You didn't mean it, but it is really hurting. Since young,I am always trying to make you proud of me, but you never seemed to notice me .What i do , you never take it to heart. Dad i am really sorr to piss you off. I really did not mean it. But the love u gave mi seem lesser and lesser. Are your proud to have me? I don tink you are.
I am completely different at home and outside. I am much much more happier outside rather than at home.I don like to go home early. I don know y.
My heart is falling . But i got to hold it back. I don know whether its love. Kind of complicated. You have given mi hope in my dark world. I don know how long willl it shine but at lest i am feeling better.I am not ur cup of tea. So i guess i am thinking too much. I don wanna break someone heart or let someone break my heart again.I sound serious but i guess i got to stop thinking abt love. Its nothing but a word.I wasn't serious abt love. But when he really fall for mi and i am feeling tat too, i am serious. I can accept all his flaws.I can accompany through his bad times. But to make mi fall for him and secure my heart is really a tough tthing. My heart is kind of like sand. Juz a gust of wind will blow my heart away and it is difficult to place it in the same position again. V ery hard.
