Today isn't a right day to think abt love.
Watched " A walk to remember". Ok i admit i did cry because the guy is so in love with the gal that he is desperate to keep her alive. She change him and make him fall in love with her but in the end she had cancer. They got married but the gal died in the end. I don understand the word "faith" can someone tell me the meaning?
I watch the 9 pm show. And guess what too? The guy who make the gal fall in love with him died.He was being beaten and i guess he die in peace because he died in the arms of the gal who love him deeply. Understand wat i mean by saying today isn't a right day to tink of falling love? I know i am abit dumb to actually cried for these show but juz couldn't control. Guess true love only occur when someone is destined to die.
I like the sea and the breeze. It gives me a calm and consoling feeling. It gives me a feeling that life wasn't that bad after all, at least the sea never changes and will always be there, unlike feelings. You know whats my dream? I hope to have a home which i am able to view the sea everyday. Cool breeze blowing into the room and i can take a walk on the beach whenever i like. Thats so wonderful.But its quite hard to find a home near the sea thats y i classified it as a dream.
Its been a long time since i go back to my unit. I know its irrespondsible to leave my squad and never go back to see them. I am busy and besides with or without me, nothing changes and who really cares. Its hard being a CI, i lose a lot of time being with my friends and there is alot of rules you have to follow. You always had to set a good example to the cadets which i find it hard to do it. I can't even show a good example at home so?! I am not happy there. I am not good in drills and stuff so what can i teach them? You can say i am lazy or weak, but i know what i am doing and now i only want myself to be happy. Thats all.
No feeling. no feeling left for him. At least i am not angry seeing him. At least i still can laugh when seeing him. Not too bad. But still i don wish to see him. I tink he should cut his hair. Seriously i guess when he trim and cut a new hairstyle he will look more neater.I know i have no right to say as my hair is not that good too and i am not related to him anyway.
