This year is going to be a damm bad yr for me. Expected. I nearly broke down last yr cause there are juz too much things for me to handle and too muc things happened. I wanna have a peaceful and smooth yr but everything juz wasn't right. I wanna do well in somethings, but i end up making more mistakes. I wanna to perform well but end up i make myself worse than others. All i want to do well but it seems so difficult. I had a hard time trying because i know nothing is impossible but its seems everything is impossible to me. My life wasn't really good after i graduate from secondary school. I really face a lot of difficulties and i really don't know how to solve it myself. All i wan is to do somethings that people will be proud of me but i end up being a burden to others. I always end up being a burden to others. Always.
I try to hide my feelings because i don't want people to see me as a weak person. But my heart is too cramp to actually store so many hiding emotions to others. I don't wanna be a burden to others. Really don't want.
I neither have a good figure or a pretty face. I am indecisive and always end up being a burden to others. I am insensitive and i am very bad in consoling others. I am not sociable and friendly. Sometimes i wonder what good points do i have? Seriously speaking i don have qualities to be a good girlfrene if not i won't have become a failure in relationships. I do have qualities to scare away guys. Potential . Getting fatter n fatter and pimples incresasing thenselves in a surprising rate. Oh shit. I am gone.
Finding someone who love you and u love too is pretty hard. Its either you end up with another person or you see the one you loves falls in love with the other person and you are all by urself now.I feel like a second hand good and i am pretty sure not many ppl want second hand goods right? Its juz a feeling a very natural feeling. Its a very unwanted feeling.
Its been a long time since soemone actually did something and touch my heart. Its hard to recall that feeling because feeling will fade as time passed by and all you can do is to have that feeling again. If i had a partner, i would bring him/her to the beach and enjoy the beautiful sea and breeze. I will then lean on his/her shoulders and then enjoy the beautiful scenery with him/her. Thats a very first thing after i came back from batam. Seeing the beautiful beach but you are alone by urself is really a pitiful thing . No one enjoys the scenery with you even though how beautiful the beach is.
What qualities to you wan ur bf to have? Me? Nothing to crap so going to write these qualities down:
1) 170cm and above (ha.ha)
2) very humorous
3) protective
4) supportive
5) Attentive
6) Encouraging
Normally wat u wish for will never come true.ha.ha.
