So "lucky" these few days. Had a fever cum cough cum flu. Feeling so tired even through i slept for more than 12 hours. Finally feeling better after yesterday fever.But stilll got a bit dizzy at times. Sian. I hate being sick. Even through i am sick, no one seems to care. Even my family doesn't care .
I had only one week of vacation left. I hate the feeling of going to school early in the morning. Got to squeeze up the bus packed with people. Got to think what to wear the day before because my clothes are really private limited. Got to stay in school for almost 1/2 of the day. Hate the compeitivenessin the class. Hate the feeling of being inferior when you think other people ideas are way better than yours. Hate the loneliness and insecure feeling in school.
Sometimes, most of my friends are in ngee ann. Would it be better if i also study there? Will passion overcome loneliness? I had passion for the things i learnt but on the other hand, i feel really lonely at times. People always said follow your dreams but how many people really know that what actually happen behind every dream. Perhaps you need to sacrifice something in order to follow your dreams and this "something", you will only know it after you lose it.
