I use to tot that i have a heart
made of metal.
Because i don't cry that often in
the past.
But i guess, i am getting more
and more emotional.
I have a lot of emotions now.
i CRY easily.
I get angry easily.
I get disappointed once in a while.
Went for training toda.
Cool. But i juz feel that i never give out my best.
Went for the tong tong cheng cheng dinner.
Boring as usual.
Nothing much to eat.
Nothing good to eat.
I attended every year i guess.
I started when i was young.
Now things change.
Kids who are younger than me actually grew taller
than me.
Now the uncles had "evolve" into ah peks.
Everyone change so does the food.
ha.ha.
Wasn't in a mood to eat.
Perhaps i am too tired.
Luckily got kids around.
Their gestures, expressions and behaviours
never fail to make me smile.
They are innocent in a certain way.
They get very excited over little things
or some "lame" stuffs.
Suddenly miss the kids i knew at the playground.
I lost all their photos when my com crash.
I miss them so much even through they might not
know my existence.
ha.h.a
Its freaking weird y some ppl are willing
to spent hundred over bucks it bid for a "kuey" or a "lamp"?
I asked my mum.
She said it is good luck to bid for these kind of things.
I guess they should have donate to the more needy ppl.
Well they are rich who can stop them form spending their money.
When i saw those lonely elderly and those who had a bit
of mental problems, i feel like crying.
I feel pity for them.
I feel sorry for them.
I seems to feel what they feel.
From their expression, you know they are not
happy.
I am suppose to do my assignments.
But i end up blogging.
Hopeless creature.
In the past, i often expect a lot fron others.
And end up i am the unhappy one.
Now, i still expect. But not that much.
Expect too much from ppl makes u feel stressful,
and normally u will only feel disappointment.
When disppointment accumulates, it will turn to anger.
I hate that feeling.
SO don promise things which you can't deliver.
ha.h.a
I am learning to take things easier.
I hate making things complicated.
I can remember bad things for a long
long long time.
Thats y i can't be happy every day.
hha.ha
What is happinest?
How do you define happniess?
