Todays training was shag at first.
After yesterday fitness test,
my leg is still wobby and now..
think my thigh muscles is going to tear man..
Really feel weird watching them play.
I can feel the excitement
i really had the urge to join them
but i can't.
I can only cheer for them.
I am trying hard but i am juz lack of something.
I know i had to get use to this feeling fast.
Assignments!
Indesign?
Oh goosh!
I am seriously lacking of ideas for my layout.
This assignment is going to be tough 1.
Nothing goes smoothly for this assignment.
eVERYTHING juz cock up.
I really don know wat to do.
Really.
Maybe the course doesn't suits me at all.
I am juz stubborn.
Trying to prove myself i am creative and smart
in the end only to know that i am nothing but
a stupid and dumb asshole.
I am trying to remember everything.
But i juz can't.
The sponge in my brain can't absorb anymore.
Perhaps i should juz go and hide in one corner and starve to death
Sometimes i woke up hoping its was another dream.
Sometimes i hope i can disappear without a trace,
and no one actually remember or knew my existence.
Everyone will juz carry on with their life.
With or without me, it makes no difference.
