Its been so long since i blog.
Once school starts, it marks the journey of a "no life" life.
i am still in a holiday mood
so i wasn't really listening during lectures.
I have been thinking a lot these fews day.
i started to wonder if i really have a personality that piss ppl off.
if i ever ever offended anyone i am sorry.
i am careless in my words.
if i think that that person had offended me in some ways,
i will sure argue back.
maybe thats y i look so arrogant or idiotic.
i can't control what i said these few days.
kept talking rubbish and nonsense.
can't stand my self too.
think wormy is the ke lian one.
i notice these few days i had been aiming at him.
don know y.
it is 1.20am
waiting for my hair to dry.
if you ask me whether i like to play karate or rugby,
my answer is : karate.
why?
karate is individual. When you lose, you can't blame others.
you can only blame urself for not training hard enough.
Even if you make mistakes, you will not drag anyone down.
everything is so personal.
you are on ur own when fighting.
i am the kind who often makes stupid mistakes so
i guess the best choice is for me is karate right.
i have to bear everything myself.
rugby. i love this sport ever since i m in primary sch.
i like rugby because i like to play together as a team.
encouragement. disappointment. happinest.
everyone have a share of it.
its different playing rugby in the past then now.
when i was in primary sch, playing rugby was such a fun thing to do.
everyone seem so united and have no agenda being together.
but now when you grow up, you notice changes.
you don know who is real and who is fake.
everyone seems like acting.
maybe even myself.
rugby is no longer a sport but a compeition.
expectation are higher.
when you said: "juz be urself".
its hard.
juz be urself doesn't mean everyone like "urself".
why is it when i tried so hard but i am still struck.
perhaps like wat he said, i had no motivation.
sad to say but true..
i seems to have lose my motivation to carry on living.
h.ah.a..
can't find any goal at the moment.
what is the quickest way i can earn $$.
Idn thingy, $150 for the whole event ticket, how am i going to pay.
$35 each day. but it is still so expensive.
i juz hope i can be a volunteer like my peers, so i can help and view the exhibtions for free.
feel kind of disappionted not to attend the thing.
it would be enriching and great.
and i would helps me alot.
but..
i am poor.
thats all.
feel kind of sorry toda.
let down my sensei i think.
never try my best to fight.
can see that he is unhappy about that.
My dear lao gong gong (yucks)
thanks for ur {hearts} ha.ha..
although i never say anytthing.
but you really make my bad day a little bit better.
thanks.
you did a great job cheering me up with all ur crappy jokes
and magic?haha
