Well, its a tiring day.
Selling popsicles here and there.
Kind of feeling messy.
Don know what i can do.
Everything is so mess up.
melted popsicles.hot weather. rude ppl.
We did everything we can in oder to sell.
But the locations doesn't seems very ideal.
But i enjoy myself alothough i really don like this kind of stuffs.
ha.ha.
Went down to training after that.
Never eat anything the whole day so no energy to run.
But after a while, i am energetic again.
I love fun touch.
Playing with the senoirs is definately good.
I envy and admire them.
Their speed and skillls are so good.
The way they dive, THE WAY they break through.
Playing in the mud is also another fun thing to do.
But its troublesome to wash off the muds.
I was screaming at my top of my voice but no one help me.
Everything turn out to be fine when i suddenly feel something is wrong.
I don know.
If i ever tell a stranger that i am playing touch rugby and karate,
their first answer will be :" A re you sure? you don look like you are one"
Ya right.
My face is abit nerdy and look like someone who can bully and never say a single word.
i may look weak but i am not.
i am only weak during certain times.
Its sad to know that ppl don believe in what you said.
or convince.
even you are speaking the truth.
It makes me feel useless and worthless.
Its really depressing.
When your friends don believe in what you said.
not only friends but family too.
I don tink anyone trust me.
Everyone thinks that i am useless.
i am trying to be strong but no matter how strong i am,
i will still fall down one day.
You can have everyone on earth to be ur friend.
But how many of the " friends" you consider can actually
listen to ur problems and share the solutions.
Its hard.
really.
ITS WEIRD for some ppl to have amny friends.
but not me.
its seems like i have a strange face or attitude which turns ppl off.
I can only be those " hi bye" friend, not good or best friends.
Kind of feelin pathetic .
