Well just back from chong boon npcc camp.
Kind of boring and weird for me.
Disappoint and kind of let them down too.
I am really an irrespondsible person .
Seeing people criticsing their performance makes me feel guilty.
First day of camp is kind of ok .
Second day is the worst.
Feel kind of leftout.
My clinques are not there and my gal pal is busy for me.
Feel depressing and sad.
I don know what is my status now.
Am i still a cadet inspector or juz some ex-npcc cadet?
Wanna find someone tok to but can't anyone.
Wanna go crazy during the campfire but don have the motivation to.
Going through the whole camp realls alot of our memories.
Happy memories.
It is really amazing how people and event changes.
How time passes us so fast that we will never be able to catch up with them.
Really tot of a lot of wonderful memories.
Feel like tearing during the campfire.
Juz don know why.
Really happy to see siew yee, jia hao, dennis , hong soon and nelson agian.
Feels like when i am in sec 2 again.
Everyone change.
Feel really good.
Never receive any sms from you since last night.
I .. have nothin to say coz i am always wrong.
I'm the one who took you for granted so what more can i ask.
Like i always said , you deserve a better one.
I am selfish. I am stubborn.
I wanna make you feel better but i guess my actions really irritates you.
I am sorry really sorry. A ll i wan is to make you feel happy despite the hot and sweaty day but a;ll i end up is your "you are so sickening " face and " stop bothering me" face. So i end up getting fed up agian.I feel hurt . Seriously hurt.
